My Boyfriends Dad is in an awful way right now! He went in for a check up monday and they decided to keep him in, good job they did he nearly died twice monday night. He's still in intensive care but stable now! I'm pretty worried about dave, He's the one that keeps his family together! But who's there for him! Of course i am, but i'm not sure thats enough. 

I hurt for him and its kinda made me realise that I Love Him. EK! 
Now all i have to do is keep that to myself for a few months its to early to tell him and not the right time either!

Things are good, very good! 

I've meet an amazing guy, been going out with him for 3 months now and i am in lust with him! 

Things are looking to be a great summer!

Hope all our well!

Love you all
Elle

I’ve started a new job not sure if I like it or not! In fact I can prob say I don’t like it!

I took it for all the wrong reasons:

A. Wanted to leave the other place so badly!

B more money!

C.I thought… well I’m not sure what I thought!

So now I’m stuck here giving it a shot! I can get on the internet but have to be very careful! Which sucks!

The only reason I’m moaning is cause I’m bored! I’m bored and its only 09:44 FOR FUCK SAKE!

On another note the new guy is going good, he’s away right now in San Francisco and I miss the txt’s and I miss the phone call ever night!

I’m delighted that I feel this way again about a guy cause after the last one I thought I’d never trust a guy again. But the thing is the new guy he’s so different! When he says he’s going to do something he’ll do it, granted he’s sometimes late but bless he’s still there for me!

I’m taking it slow, we’ll see how it goes!

I've decided i really dislike winter sometimes its just so depressing, it gets a person down something feirce! its just dull dull dull.

I can't wait for the nice whether to come in, hopefully moods will liken up and we can begin beer garden season haha no i'm serious nothing better then beer garden season! 

I'm having a dinner on saturday for some of my oldest and longest friends and then my 3 sisters, i could have invited so many more people to this circle but i didn;t have the room and i really wanted my sisters there for my first real dinner party! Ah well there will be more at a later date! Sorry to those i didn't get around to inviting this time!

Anyway this has been a weird week for me, not sure if its cause of the winter (see above) or what but My back has been in bits and because of this i've not been able to go to the gym which is pissing me of! i've been doing so good nearly a stone down so far! but i'm hoping next week things will be better and i'll be back on track!

Ok so i know its been awhile but i've been up to and going through a lot and don;t have much time for the internet anymore! 

Ok so i rang in another new year with no "someone Speical" in my life again this year! I really beginning to get really sick of it. But i also realised i'm not in the best place right now so how am i going to meet someone!?

Well i decided my sister is gettng married next year and i am bridesmaid so i'm going to lose 3 and a half stone by march next year 2009. So i begin on the horrible struggle of a long road...

I started weight watchers and the gym. I love the gym, I hate weightwatchers! ah well so i'm seeing little differences but not much of yet! Buts its early days so i'm hoping in the next few months i'll start seeing the difference. I have to say this is the hardest thing i've done in a long while!


Enda!
The guy that broke my heart last year!
Who i still think about! 
Man its hard living in a small willage sometimes!
Anyway i've not seen him since just after christmas! Appartenly he's given up drink till march!
But i was talking to his brother in law a few weeks back, nicest guy ever!
He was a little drunk but he ended up saying that i was too good for enda! he was like Eleanor i love enda but he is not good enough for you! and he will never change, i think we both know that!
Then precided to say people like enda give up drink for 3 months cause their body needs it cause they tend to drink so much during the year! 

Shea said to me that it was because he has his medical with the army in march and that he gives up drink and trains looses like 4 stone flys through the medical and then goes back on the piss after that!
I think i believe that more then i would the other thing! 

Anyway i thought i was getting better with the situation cause i haven't seen him in so long but you know what its not getting better its gettng a little easier but i still have these feeling which i know i shouldn't!
Feking heart never does what its told to do haha

I've been moved out of home for over 4 months now and i only fully realised this the other night going home from my mam's!

its weird its a weird feeling and i'm not to sure why! i mean i love the freedom and i love not having to answer about where i'm going and so on! but thats not to say i don;t miss home a lot! i miss my dad coming upstair knocking on my door nearly catching me crying to gryes antomy tyo say good night before he goes home little stuff like that! i miss my mam shouting up the stairs, only to have her want something small like to show me a new top even though she made out the house was burning! Again small things! I miss my litttle brother asking me about computer stuff! or asking me if i;ve watched the latest episode of heroes and rappiting on like the teenager her is! i do miss them! but i don't think i could move back home unless i really really had to again!

And that last part freaks me out a little!

The guy, i'm over it, i'm over the whole god damn thing. Its time for me to move on and i can clearly see that! This doesn;t mean go find another i mean if that happens well and good but it means to take a step away from it the whole situation and start thinking about other things! i deserve a whole lot better! 

Now all i have to do is get over him!

Anyone got any idea's of how to do this?

Any help would be much appircated!

Thanks
Elle

Ok so here is a few up to date pictures nothing new really except hair and hey lets face it that changes oon a regular basis haha

No news this wkd is going like ever other drunk last night hungover today. Did go shopping today and got a few nice things! I love Penny's it rocks for cheap stuff but looks so funky

 Trigger

Have we lost the spark or a guide?
What’s the latest on the screen?
Can’t be too late to turn around
I need all the help from you
I need to find something to blame for a long lost time

I am running from something, I don’t know
I am searching for something, which way to go?
I am trying to separate what’s real
I’m running in a wheel

Is it dark or is it bright?
What’s the latest on the screen?
Can you please tell me my name,
I haven’t checked it today

I am running from something, I don’t know
I am searching for something, which way to go?
I am trying to separate what’s real
I’m running in a wheel

From green to red our days pass by
Waiting for a sign to tell us why
Are we dancing all alone?
Collect some stars to shine for you
And start today ‘cause there are only a few
The sign of times my friend

Avoid infinity?
Are you for real?
Just scratch the surface, and you will find
Something to blame for a long lost time

From green to red our days pass by
Waiting for a sign to tell us why
Are we dancing all alone?
Collect some stars to shine for you
And start today ‘cause there are only a few
The sign of times my friend

Just scratch the surface, and you will find
Something to blame for a long lost time

From green to red our days pass by
Waiting for a sign to tell us why
Are we dancing all alone?
Collect some stars to shine for you
And start today ‘cause there are only a few
The sign of times my friend.

fuck you!!!

Meadhbh and myself


Aoife

me before my tan begun


coctails

Shit, shit, shit, I had this big long update and of course I have deleted it by accident!

Anyway here it goes again!

Every time I go to update this I find I get roped into something else within my life!

Things like

Enda coming home! I don’t want to go any further with this but I will because I know you’ll be thinking what the fuck and………

So he’s home and all he does is go to the pub Fridays and Sunday and yeah you know me I’m all for that! But then the rest of the time he stays and home and does jack all except watch TV! Now I know that he’s only home and it must be hard but he’s got 5 weeks of and he’s wasting it doing nothing!

We’re going no where because of him! So I’ve decided I’ll give him a few more weeks wait till he’s back to work and what not and see what the situation is like then! Then either way its time for me to move onwards!

On another front my car is letting me down something fierce these days so its time for a new one! I’ve been looking, saw a lovely one this morning that I think I will go for. It’s a black Opel astra and it’s lovely! Deluxe model haha so think that will be my purchases come Monday!

I’m just back from hols as ya can see from the few photo’s up there the rest are on bebo if want to have a look

http://www.bebo.com/invite/391248232a637533339b229

Anyway was a good laugh got me a good tan just what we all needed! Went with my three sisters and no real fights which was good haha

Everything you do, everywhere you go now
Everything you touch, everything you feel
Everything you do, even your rock 'n' roll now
Nothing mean a thing except you and your baby
Love your baby, love your baby
Love your baby, love...


Listening to this song makes me very chilled and the lyrcs for some reason hit home! 
Today was weird, weird is the only way i can begin to explain it and now sitting here i couldn't possible write about it.

Instead i'm sitting here listening to Inara George and sweating its so fucking hot! First day of summer off with bang, good i suppose but I also fear for Ireland its not going to come out of this summer in one piece what with the fucking traffic and the water in galway! No its not going to come out in one piece at all! 

People talk about globel warning and not that i don't listen i do my part i recyle and try not to use spray's, but to see it happening recently its a little not frightening but strange!

NEW HAIR!